it is one thirty in the morning
and i have just fallen out of the zone
in the zone
where i have been for the last four hours
i have been gluing sequins to a cardboard cutout costume piece
that is going to look,
and forgive the arrogance here,
a-mazing

before that it was tofu at the tofu house
and the reassurance that i just don't like korean food
and it is ok

the light was falling so beautifully into the evening
and i felt hopeful and nostalgic at the same time
looking backwards and forwards
like christmas was in the air
excited to eat dinner alone
in a new restaurant
as part of my reclaim la program
a non profit research project for one
me

and now sleep
sleep
sleep