dinner with an old friend/ 14 year old kiss

I had dinner tonight with
The only boy
I was ever a first kiss for

And he still smells the same
Even from 3 feet away

The way he did when we were fourteen and
Wearing Halloween costumes
That last year we could go
Trick or treating
Before it was considered
cheating

I remember we were holding hands
And it happened
Like that

In different places and different times
We might have been married

And maybe I wouldn’t even notice that smell
That is so distinctive to me
And for some reason
Reminds me of holed out cardboard
The way I imagine it would
Taste on my tongue