it's winter

it's winter and i want everything in its place
the coat hung properly in the hallway closet
the little lace things in the top dresser drawer
i want the pillows on the bed arranged just so
as the rain finally falls on all that's parched below

i'm frozen on the edges
while just below the surface i'm warm
as tea and bread

this is runaway weather
late night car rides into nowhere weather
or
get in a fight on the front step weather
so we can make up and kiss in the rain weather
or
just stay home all day with paints and glitter weather
while you look at me as you hang the lights weather

it is the season as i remember you loved me worst
and best
with the most awful lies and weak excuses
and this year you are gone
with the old wrapping paper and promises
as i try to make sense of that
because
the rain is finally falling
it's winter
and i want everything in it's place