i am wasting my time with television
rather
my reluctance to do anything else is the problem
i stay up late
to watch john and kate plus eight

then find lost love letters online
and scan through postsecret.com
i would write love letters myself
but to whom?

i made a list for my wall of things
i want in my life
tomorrow i will sew
and work out
and find lost money or a job
tomorrow
i will write what is really happening

its much too much
as it is right now
i feel like a boring broken record
a story that is always the same

i hate sleeping alone
i am learning to take up more of the bed
to lie in the middle
that is my right
i bought the damn thing

i never hog blankets when i sleep by myself
never toss and turn
i wake up and the sheets are as they were
before i got in bed
the night before

i'll chop all this up later for other pieces
about loved ones
and lost ones
and what was i thinking ones

there should be a book
or a show
where we can go
and reenact the best and worst moments
i guess that is called a wine night
or a drunk fight

i stay up late so my head gets foggy
better than drugs
or alcohol
so i can fall asleep as soon as i lay down
and not have to think
about thinking